Long Time No Blog

I've been neglecting my blog.  Time to get back.  So, last month I made the very unwise decision that I would stop taking all my pain meds.  Cold Turkey.  Just threw them away.  Bad idea.  My hair was turning to straw and I thought if this is whats happening on the outside of my body, what are these drugs doing to the inside?  Needless to say, 2 days after quiting all meds, I was coming out of my skin.  I was rocking in my bed, crying and generally freaking the hell out.  I thought I was having a nervous breakdown.  Didn't really see the connection to the meds until I spoke with my doctor.  I was placed on a medication to help me through the with drawls and then I was able to taper off of that medicine.  I have since switched up my meds to less powerful ones.  I have more energy now, but it's like nervous energy.  My legs and arms feel like they are crawling.  I'm stir crazy.  The pain is the same, I just don't want to depend on a medication like that again.  Life is pain, I keep telling myself that.  Life is pain.  I don't really see it as a bad thing.  Pain stops when you are dead.  I plan on sticking around.