Long Time No Blog

I've been neglecting my blog.  Time to get back.  So, last month I made the very unwise decision that I would stop taking all my pain meds.  Cold Turkey.  Just threw them away.  Bad idea.  My hair was turning to straw and I thought if this is whats happening on the outside of my body, what are these drugs doing to the inside?  Needless to say, 2 days after quiting all meds, I was coming out of my skin.  I was rocking in my bed, crying and generally freaking the hell out.  I thought I was having a nervous breakdown.  Didn't really see the connection to the meds until I spoke with my doctor.  I was placed on a medication to help me through the with drawls and then I was able to taper off of that medicine.  I have since switched up my meds to less powerful ones.  I have more energy now, but it's like nervous energy.  My legs and arms feel like they are crawling.  I'm stir crazy.  The pain is the same, I just don't want to depend on a medication like that again.  Life is pain, I keep telling myself that.  Life is pain.  I don't really see it as a bad thing.  Pain stops when you are dead.  I plan on sticking around. 

J O B

It's been quite awhile since I've blogged.  I have much more to tell.  But now for some good news.  I got a JOB!  I feel like a contributing member of society.  It's perfect for me.  2 days a week and a couple of hours a day.  I'm an on air host for a local channel that will air local films by local filmmakers.  It airs Thursday nights at on KLWB at 8pm.  Right up my alley.  The first show airs this Thursday, April 14th.  They can work around my issues if needed. 

Interesting Article

http://pagingdrgupta.blogs.cnn.com/2011/02/23/mind-body-inside-chronic-fatigue/?hpt=C2

Don't Give Up

Too many of my friends are suffering.  To them I say, Don't give up!  I'm here for you.  People are there for you and you may not even notice.  Connect with your friends.  When your down you need a friend.  I know I've felt in the past like no one wants to hear about my woes.  But I guarantee you they would rather listen to you then to see you give up.  Keep fighting the good fight.  You have purpose.  You are loved.  You inspire others. 

Leigha

To My Friends

To those of you having a hard time right now I'd like to say this.

What does not kill you, can only make you stronger.

Believe

That is all

Leigha

New Meds

I won't name them, but this new medication is making me loopy.  While some people seek out "loopy" I can't stand it!  I have stuff to do Yo!  I never drive within at least 4 hours of taking pain meds.  I took this at 9 a.m.  Come on now.  As for taking away the pain, that is still up for debate.  I would like my own personal physical therapist to stretch out my bones every morning.  Where can I find one of those on the cheap?  :)  The sun is out and tomorrow is supposed to be a beautiful day.  I plan on a nice bike ride.  I'm feeling daring, may go around the neighborhood more than twice!  My middle name is Danger!  The basket and bell on my bike just make me look more Bad Ass!  Musing of a person trapped at home.

Leigha

Weather

So how many of you think you would be excellent weather forecasters?  I can feel the barometric pressure changing, there's got to be money in that right?  I gotta figure out a way to market this.  The American Dream, making easy money.  Well, painful money but it's a skill any way.  If only my Titanium was magnetized, then I could travel the circus circuit, sticking various objects to my spine.  That may be kind of handy, no pockets, no problem, I'll just wear it on my spine.  I could start a whole new fashion trend. I could take the fashion world by storm!  The Cat Walk.  O.K. time to hit the hey before I start busting out the Right Said Fred.

Leigha